Obviously the title says it all: I never thought I'd have a big church wedding. I always pictured myself outdoors, at a bbq (vegetarian of course), and casually doing a handfasting type ceremony. Now here I am, planning a big shindig with a 5 course meal.
No one ever tells you when you're a little girl that you're going to have to share your big day. They just don't! And while its obvious that your husband to be will be sharing your big day, it never really factors in until you're actually planning the day together, how much you may have to compromise.
As I read about other weddings and peruse all the wedding porn out there, I occasionally get struck with sadness over the fact that sometimes my wedding feels so much not like me that it drives me bonkers. I know that its just one day and it doesn't define us as a couple, but still, some days I get really bogged down in the details and expectations of others and it just makes me want to scream. Today is one of them. But I'll get over it. I just need to put it out there from time to time. Thank you Internet, for allowing me to unleash my inner angst, anonymously