I'm finding it really hard to make peace with this, but slowly but surely I'm learning to accept that my pregnant body has very different limits than my normal body does.
Throughout my pregnancy breathing has been an issue for me. As early as mid November (when I thought I was fighting a cold), I've felt congested and easily out of breath. Talking and going up a flight of stairs would really wind me. Hell, talking and walking down the hallway with colleagues was something that would start my breathing into overdrive.
As I move further along in my pregnancy (namely my 3rd trimester) my out of breathedness has moved into epic proportions. If I have to go up and down the stairs in the house, I'm completely out of breath now. Forget trying to go to the basement and then the 2nd floor. It's a recipe for disaster. The irony of it is, is that I can go to Aquafit and do the prenatal exercise and be relatively fine so it's not an out of shape thing. It's just a pregnant thing.
Suffice to say Paul has had to learn to walk a lot slower when we're out and about. I'm one of those slow walkers now. My fast walking nature is finding this to be a kick in ego to say the least. I can't wait to be able to walk normally again, you have no idea!
I've also had to accept that I just can't stand or do as much as I used to without paying the price for it. Painting, sanding a cradle or shopping for a few hours now causes my hips and back to ache for hours (if not days when I don't take care of myself properly) afterwards. I feel like a complete whiny baby for this fact. 4 hours of walking/shopping should not make me want to cry in pain at the end of the day. But it kind of does now. And I'll be honest, I find this very hard to deal with.
Thankfully I'm starting to wise up a bit about these things. I'm learning that if I have pain like this, it means I must sleep with a pillow between my legs that night to help ease the pain. If I don't, forget about it. Just standing up in the morning is the horrendous pain inducing exercise.
That said, and all whininess aside, I have a new found appreciation for all the difficulties that pregnant women complain about. I'll be honest, I just didn't understand before. I mean, I knew that the baby caused back pain but I never imagined that it could be so bad. I knew that the belly became awkward and had heard the stories about not being able to tie your shoes, but now I finally get why this is the case (although I can do this still, albeit with a bit of strain and out of breathedness).
And more importantly, aside from learning to be kinder to my body, I've come to appreciate how wonderfully my body works in its normal state.