Friday, November 22, 2013

Conversations lately

Here's what our family conversations look like these days:

Thursday, November 21, 2013

10 things right now

1. Liam is four months old now. I don't even know how that happened. It seems like just yesterday he was being placed on my chest, all squirmy and frog like, with me filled with awe over the fact that we had created this life; that he'd grown so perfectly inside of me. And look at him now:

He is a drooling, chatting, rolling over, perfect little baby boy. How on earth did that happen?

2.We finally installed our tub. It's been a long process. We bought it ages ago. I can truthfully say, had I known that it would be this complicated, I would have just gotten the tiled in tub that I dislike so much. But now that we have it, and it looks like the install is complete, it's a pretty awesome tub!

3. Paul is a great dad. I always knew he'd be but seriously... listening to him play with Liam and get Liam laughing is probably the best thing in my life right now. It makes me so happy and full of love and just content. Oh, I love watching him sing to Liam or soothe him and all the stuff in between, but listening to him getting Liam to giggle = absolute bestest ever!

Liam is learning to hold things, including his bottle!

4. I'm quickly learning that this parenting thing can bring out the best and worst in a person. Having realized that, I'm striving hard to stay on my better side of the fence. The first 3 months of motherhood were not my finest hours. They may have been the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. Harder than writing a thesis, harder than a broken heart caused by losing my biological father before saying goodbye or really ever getting to know him, just harder. And yet, at the same time, they were filled with awe. I can safely say now, in our 4th month, that I get why people would do this again and that yes, this is the best thing I've ever done in my life. If you'd asked me at month 2, I wouldn't have been able to say the same. I didn't like who I was becoming. But now I've regained my balance and things are better. I'm able to see my reactions and be a better mother. I don't know that all mothers are made at the moment of birth. I think for me, becoming a mother was a slower process. The bonding was and wasn't instant.

5. Since becoming a stay at home mom *on mat leave* I have discovered online shopping. This is NOT a good thing. I have also discovered that I am not the only mom with an online shopping addiction. It is a very dangerous rabbit hole and I need to be careful about where it takes me. Just because it's a better deal doesn't mean that I need it!

6. I've started hanging out with other moms. It's nice. I find staying at home really isolating so it's nice to hang out with other moms. We always have something to talk about because we are sharing the same motherhood journey at the moment. In fact, between my online and now in person mom groups, I'm starting to feel like I spend more time talking with moms than anything else. I am grateful that I've found some solidarity but also need to remember to find time to talk about non-mom stuff. This parenting thing can sort of become all consuming...

7. It's raining right now. Rainy nights always make me a little homesick. Tonight in particular, the rain is making me think about the holidays and how, as a teen, I used to watch the rain drip off the Christmas lights outside. I loved watching the colours drop. Of course, thinking about Christmas makes me remember that I'm in Quebec now... snow will be here soon enough and winter is on it's way. I hate winter. Ok, I don't hate winter. I hate how LONG winter is. If it could be over and done with by February, I'd be all over winter. But alas...

8. I'm so far behind on Project Life I'm actually daunted by the prospect of going back to it. It's not that I don't have time to do the scrapbooking. I just need to do it differently than I did before. And then my printer ran out of ink. And well, my craft room is currently a disaster. DISASTER! I need to clean it and get it sorted and then start tackling my scrapbooking. Honestly, I don't want to not do it because this is the record of Liam's first days. But by now, I feel like I've forgotten so much it makes me a bit sad. I need to write this shit down. I used to, but I've just gotten out of the habit. Creativity is a habit and it's one that I need in my life so I need to make time for it.

9. That said, I've been trying my hand at making a new holiday ornament:

This is the mock up for a crafting activity I'm going to do with other moms. Our final one will be made with a photo we had done professionally. OMG it's so cute, I can't wait to share it. Seriously. Adorbs! Yeah... I'm back at the squishy again aren't I?

10.  Well on that note... here is my son, filmed for Karen who bought him his Sophie, attacking Sophie's face. He loves Sophie these days! Hell, he loves just about anything he can shove in his mouth right now.

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Liam's Catholic Baptism

On Sunday we had Liam baptized in the church we got married in 4 years ago. The priest, upon seeing us, actually asked "I married you two didn't I?" I'm not sure if it's a good or bad thing that we're memorable (he marries a lot of couples)...

Baptism People (godparents, priest, our little family) Photo taken by my brother in law Tom.
Liam was an absolute star. Honestly, ever since he's mastered the art of rolling over, his personality has just become amazing. He is just the sweetest, smiling baby these days. He laughs and loves looking at people.

But enough Mama gushing...

I had mixed feelings about the baptism. Anyone who really knows me, knows this was to be expected for several reasons. But that said, Father Paul always makes me feel better about the compromise I am making. He reminds me that in the end, Catholicism at it's heart is about love and kindness, not keeping up with the Joneses or judging. He brings back the laughter and lightness into a faith that I have long since abandoned because it became steeped in negativity and intolerance for me. This is not to say that I'm about to go rushing back to the fold any time soon... I have my own beliefs and they are still at odds with a lot of the core tenets of the Catholic faith. But it is nice to be reminded that good Christians are good people and that a Christian community can be a place that can bring out the best in people when nurtured positively.

So all that said...

Liam was baptised. And it was a lovely day. I don't have many pictures of my own because I was trying to be actively engaged in it. As a scrapbooker/photographer it's easy to end up being behind the lens instead of in the moment, which is something I really don't want to have happen during my son's life. So instead, I'll just do my best to rely on the photos of others to document such events.

We went out for lunch afterwards to a local Tibetan restaurant, Tibetan Om. I think it went over well. As always, the food was delicious and the service great. This was potentially a controversial choice as many of our guests weren't familiar with Tibetan/Indian cuisine, but Paul and I wanted something that reflected us and was different than the traditions we both grew up with, which are very different from one another already. As always, we are trying to find a middle ground that reflects our relationship together. This isn't always easy to do because we grew up in very different traditions, but I think that we managed to find a happy medium in the end.

Another photo courtesy of Tom. Liam in his little white outfit, chewing off Sophie's ear
More importantly, I realize that I may just be an emotional Mama for my son's events. Paul made a small thank you speech and I nearly started crying. I'm just a weepy kind of Mama I guess. Watching my son's rites of passage is something that just brings out the squishy in me. What can I say? I want so much for my little man to know love and so when I witness the love that surrounds him and us with him, it just fills me with happiness for him. I hope that he always knows how truly blessed he is in his life.

And I hope that we always manage to find a middle ground that honours where we both come from while creating a new set of family traditions for our family.

ps... if you have pictures you'd care to share with me, I'd be happy to have them!

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

chocolate gift baggies

This weekend we're having Liam's baptism.* This is kind of a big deal in Paul's family. And it's kind of a foreign concept (the big deal thing) in mine. When my little brother was baptized (I'm his godmother), it really was very simple. I don't think we even had a party or lunch after the event.

But here I am, prepping for a life event that involves little bonbonieres. As a crafter, I enjoy this part of the event the most:

I'm sure I'm supposed to keep these things top secret until after the event but dammit, I've been working hard on making chocolates and pretty little baggies in between nursing and napping with a sick baby. So I'll share if I want to!

Products used (because I'm trying to be better about remembering this):

Hero Arts Puzzle Stamp
Bazzill Cardstock Paper
Baker's Twine
Washi Tape
Ali Edward's Technique Tuesday Stamp

*(No, I don't want to talk about how I feel about it, so don't ask).

Monday, November 11, 2013

liam at almost 4 months

Again, for those so inclined...

We've got ourselves a little "talker".

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

around here


Slowly but surely, life is starting to settle around here as we move out of the "surviving newborn baby" mode. I'm starting to find time again for some of my activities (not much scrapbooking though but I chalk that up to be out of printer ink).

Here's what I've been up to:

Cutting up pumpkins leftover from Halloween and smashing them!


I’ve made my first batch of baby food (I only made it because I had so much pumpkin leftover), pumpkin ginger scones and frozen more batches for later. It’s been all about pumpkin around here!

I also tried my hand at homemade granola bars. They were really easy and quick to make. I’m sensing a new trend. I really like the idea of moving away from so many processed, store bought foods. If I can, I’d like to eat more real food.


I made them with chocolate chips (cause that’s what Paul seems to like the best) but snuck in some currents to make them a bit healthier. The currents are small so you really don’t notice them at all. I’m sensing some devious mama tactics in the future…

And Paul and I took Liam to a restaurant for the very first time. Not subway or a food court. But a real restaurant. It went ok. Thankfully the restaurant in question was empty at the time. Paul of course couldn’t waste the photo opportunity to lick his son:


Aside from that…

I joined an English Speaking Moms of Laval group in September and have been slowly getting out more with the ladies. Honestly, it’s doing me a lot of good to get out more often. While I’m a homebody, there’s something very different about being in the house all the time with a little one. I was starting to feel a little like a character from The Yellow Wallpaper. So time away from home is good. It keeps the crazy at bay which is always a good thing!


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